TTT ~ Ten Things Thursday

1.  I am flying home to cold ass balls cold cloudy rainy damp wintery cold NY in two hours.

2.  Mo is staying until Tuesday - because he needs a mental health break 

3.  I guess I am relaxed....

4.  I feel puffy even though I ran all three days in a row....probably shouldn't have ate all that Edy's froyo

5.  Tripadvisor is the SHIT - we found a kick ass restaurant here in FL - the Food Shack ~ so fresh and so yummy!  The best god dam Fish Taco on the planet - FYI - I only ate half and brought the rest home.

   
6.  My office this week ~ note my assitant - bowl of edys. Bad Girl

7.  Actually I'm looking forward to MTB again.  May even go shred this afternoon when I get home.

8.  20 pounds by June 1 is the goal - As I don't have a scale in FL - I'm going to pretend I just lost 10 and got a nice tan

9.  Silver linings Play book - awesome flick - Go see it

10.  My email is blowing up - the second I land, my biz partner leaves for a weekend out of town - tag, I'm it!  Nothing like a little stress as I'm leaving vacation.

10a.  Found an organic publix -....I almost sent for the dogs and moved in.

 

Florida ~ no scale here...

A few observations about Florida:

There are a lot of strip malls here

I love Publix....I have been 2x in 24 hours

Lots of fried food - we are cooking and having most meals at the condo but going out - its fried this and fried that..hrumph

I love running outside.  4 miles yesterday. Boom.

Everything is easy here...I'm kind of jealous - where I live there is so much effort spent on keep convenience out - like no fast food places, no chain stores, no two lane highways...its like the town prides itself on making life difficult...god I would love a publix at home.

I'm jealous of these old Broads that hang out at the condo pool - they are all over tanned and leathery, chain smokin and drinkin gin playin cards...looking forward to that age when I can stop giving a shit...again its easier....everything is easier in FL
***I wonder how old these ladies are..my guess is 80-85***

On my run yesterday

Required reading

What the hell is this?

"They see me rollin, they hatin" ~ looking at my future

Gorgonzola smothered potato chips - who thinks this shit up?  Yech...

  

 
 
  

Traveling ~ 166.0

Theres the daily scale bounce.

Traveling gets my band in a knot - always tighter than normal - but its uber tight this morning - probably because I'm over whelmed with the amount of crap I have to do before we leave -
And # 1 on that list is make the house look like we live like normal people and not hillbillies.  
We have friends staying with the dogs...so all the things I overlook on a weekly basis -like huge dust balls, the piles of paper on my desk, the clothes everywhere in our room - all have to be organized like we don't live the way we do.
I realized why I'm a slob - its because I'm OCD - if I can't have it perfect I won't do it at all - sound familiar?  Yes, this applies to diet and exercise - I've gotten better at being more even and moderate in this area - however - house work...not so much.
Oh well - there is nothing like friends judging your messy nest to make you vaccume and scrub. - Even the dogs.

So rather than clean right now, or do laundry or pack - I'm shopping on Modcloth.com and blogging...I shine under pressure and last minute hail marys.

And I just bought this swim suit - that I won't have for Florida but it was too awesome not to own.  Going to run now..

Any good books I should download for vacation?  Would love some suggestions - something fun and quick and maybe something life changing...I'm open to whatever!     

The Torture Chamber ~ 165.2

Two days till sunshine.....
I am already mentally on vacation....
Just Sayin'

Daily weigh ins are reflecting major water weight loss....but it sure is good for morale!

Heath insurance is so effed up - I just realized that we are paying over 750 a month for just my insurance~ holy what tha eff!!  I'm getting new insurance that has a much larger deductable - Its just crazy.

Yesterday I ate mostly clean - 2 Atkins shakes, tuna fish, an apple - I actually ate fruit! And then I had popcorn and we had friends for dinner = wine, risotto, asparagus and some cookies.
Its cool - today will be clean  

Thought I'd post photos of my gym -
Its a 10x10 room in our house - a collection of random things that over the years has equaled a "gym" Its not fancy but it does the job.  Treadmill was free from a barter..the rest of it found its way.
My point is anyone can carve out a bit of space to make a workout area - the hard part is getting on the dreadmill and taking the first few steps - after that its off to the races.

The TRX and my 10 pound weights - Don't judge the paint job - I've been meaning to finish...
 

 Dreadmill, bands, more weights, medicine ball and Bosu, there is a yoga mat somewhere in there too, also a TV for Mo when he works out and some bumpin speakers for my iphone - hello C+C music Factory this morning #stuckinthe90s

   
 

    

Ten Things Thursday and 166.0

1. Yesterday was good.  
2. Today will be better
2a - Weighed 166 - 1.4 from yesterday - water weight coming off.
2b. Ran. walked. dreadmill. it says 450 cal burn.  starting the day with a deficit.  Booyah!
 

 
3. I Like sunrise.  My day feels better when I witness it (this time of year its easy)
4.  Hello Spring - I miss you come back soon.
5. Florida in 3 days.  Yes.
6.  Check out Leigh's TV debut here - She is beautiful and awesome!   
7. Dreadmill again this morning.  Meh. 
7a.  How exciting is it that Seth McFarlane is hosting the Oscars - He is a genious - I have always said there are two types of people in the world - those that "get" Family Guy and those that don't - I tend to surround myself with those that "get" it.
8. Just want to say thanks to you all for reading and commenting - I couldn't do this alone and getting comments throughout the day keeps me on track.  Its like having a team of cheerleaders behind me.  So thanks!
9. I miss my bike.  I hope I remember how to ride it.
10.   Pooh qoute - I love Pooh - just not the "Disney Pooh" In fact - I despise Disney...but thats another Rant

“When you wake up in the morning, Pooh," said Piglet at last, "what's the first thing you say to yourself?"

"What's for breakfast?" said Pooh. "What do you say, Piglet?"

"I say, I wonder what's going to happen exciting today?" said Piglet.

Pooh nodded thoughtfully. "It's the same thing," he said.”  

Wednesday 167.4 + 10 pounds from December

I'm living vicariously through my friend who is at the hospital right now about to get banded. 

I recall the determination I felt that morning on April 6, 2011.  Was I scared?  yep.  But I knew that there was no other choice.  I knew what I had to do.  Nothing.... Nothing would get in my way.


April 2011 - my job was loosing weight.  Period.  End of story.  That was the only thing I could focus on.  I was so motivated, not a morsel of sugar or garbage passed these lips for months.  The idea of going out to dinner was  hilarious - no way.  
I weighed myself every day and the weight was melting off of me.

February 2013 - I struggle.  I ate a bag of chocolate yesterday (it was good chocolate) and forced in 2 slices of pizza.  Same ole behaviors are still there.  The band has done its part with the physical.  I need to do my part with the mental. 
I am a "normal" size now - 10 ish.
Going out to dinner and for drinks is the norm now, because I say yes to everything....

I need to start saying no to some things.  My body feels mushy.  

I want to hit the re-set button.  I wish that I never tested the band and figured out how to sneak in sliders and garbage.  

Starting today..I'm going to focus on feeling the same way I felt in April 2011.  Determination, Badass and Focus.  One moment at a time and eat 6-8 "meals" a day.  Hunger should not be in my world.  My main problem is that I eat drink breakfast and then get so hungry by 1pm that I think I might die if I don't ingest crap.  Then I say yes to meeting friends for drinks and end up eating bar food for dinner.

So Lets not do that anymore.   So Simply put.
I will weigh myself EVERY day and post it here.  
I will have small meals all day long
No wine...seriously.
Exercise.... every day- something.
 
    


  

Reminders of Why I did This and why I keep pushing

A little reminder of all the moments that are full of joy because of the lapband and working out

~knowing my clothes will fit

~ feeling free of shame

~feeling freedom to move around

~saying yes to everything

~not wondering what if I lost the weight

~ no more depression

~ Normalcy