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Sunday, October 21, 2012

Like a Junkie

I am.

Yesterday I got some bad news about my friend.  She is like family to me and has been through more than anyone could imagine over the past year.  So when the shit hits the fan I go into my helper mode.  
Then the stress hits me.
Then - I skip dinner and hit the edys frozen yogurt hard! with sprinkles and hot fudge.  urgh.   
As I'm chowing down on it - I picture myself being more like Tommy Gavin on Rescue Me with the whiskey.
I'm not proud of this - just wanted to share a reality and note that when the going gets really tough my coping mechanism is still the sugar and not the bike as much as I wanted to believe that.



Yesterday I did get in 5K in the trails - didn't get my bike in though.
This morning - going to do a long mountain bike ride and clear my head.
Hoping my friend can make it through this. 

 

4 comments:

  1. Good luck, hun. I will be thinking about you and wishing your friend well.

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  2. I do the same thing- eeek. Like it solves anything to down copious amounts of shit food? ! Hoping your ride does clear your head and wishing your friend well!

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  3. You and me and the sauce...AKA sugar. :( I feel your pain. It is such a hard habit to break!

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