Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Getting Real

Ok - there is a lot of stuff that I want to write about this morning - my awsome MTB ride yesterday, office pranks and this weekend's upcoming race.  
But more importantly I want to write about food.  
Going cold turkey in particular.
Thats what worked in the past it will work again.
I have been reading up on the ladies in maintenance and they only occasionaly have a treat on the weekends or here and there.  I'm not sure when it happened but I've been "using" to get through the day.  Hard phone call? - sure have a Pumkin Spice Latte - 400+ cals 
Bad Appointment? - of course you deserve some chocolate 600+ cals
Have to run around all day with no break?  I must slam down some peanut m&ms to get through
Watching Dexter and Homeland - doesnt everyone need grilled cheese and frozen yogurt?

Am I stupid? What the hell is going on here?  I read a post recently - sorry I forgot who posted it - about how being a food addict means you can't be casual with food - its always going to be a problem - (like crack)I must be vigilant about it.  I don't get to just casually have ice cream around the house.  I don't get to use the excuse that I am too busy to grocery shop and make my food.  I don't get eat what everyone else eats at the pub or when we go out.  At least not now.  I'm too close to the edge and out of control.  

Yesterday I went mountain biking with the boys at the bike park - 14 miles - and lots of fun - I was exhausted and rewarded myself with Edy's frozen yogurt and a grilled cheese...

Back to basics today.  Instead of being overwhelmed by the big picture...I'm going to handle each situation individually.  


  1. Good luck...I have to set myself up for success or I will easily choose the wrong food. I make it a priority each week to stock up on foods I like to eat that are healthy and if I start to get low I force myself to shop again..if I don't thats when bad choices enter! You got this!

  2. This time of the year and especially the colder it gets, I love lattes. But I gave them up about 4-5 months ago and honestly I don't really miss it.

    400 calories is a lot. I know you can give them up! :)


  3. Yes, this is a battle we will need to fight, maybe all our lives. I read your blog and now I keep seeing a grilled cheese sandwich...... I do not think that was the point, but it sort of was--food obsession.

  4. I understand exactly what you are saying. I just had FOUR fun sized snickers bars from the basket in Robyn's office. Why does she have them there? I don't know. I'm sure it's not to torture me...Other people can have one or two throughout the day and be fine. Me...nope, i went in and took two. Then went back a few mins later and took two more.

    How in the hell is that working my program and determination? I have no idea. It can only get better though right? Yeah, I pretty much ate the calories burned in my run this morning. Go me. :(

  5. I needed to read this. I am struggling the past few days with food again. I finally got my running back on track and dropped the ball on food. WTH!? I need to go cold turkey again and really focus. The scale is reflecting my lackadaisical attitude.

  6. Did you say grilled cheese? Shit. I'd love to comment more but I gotta go find some cheese and bread and a pan....