Ok - there is a lot of stuff that I want to write about this morning - my awsome MTB ride yesterday, office pranks and this weekend's upcoming race.
But more importantly I want to write about food.
Going cold turkey in particular.
Thats what worked in the past it will work again.
I have been reading up on the ladies in maintenance and they only occasionaly have a treat on the weekends or here and there. I'm not sure when it happened but I've been "using" to get through the day. Hard phone call? - sure have a Pumkin Spice Latte - 400+ cals
Bad Appointment? - of course you deserve some chocolate 600+ cals
Have to run around all day with no break? I must slam down some peanut m&ms to get through
Watching Dexter and Homeland - doesnt everyone need grilled cheese and frozen yogurt?
Am I stupid? What the hell is going on here? I read a post recently - sorry I forgot who posted it - about how being a food addict means you can't be casual with food - its always going to be a problem - (like crack). I must be vigilant about it. I don't get to just casually have ice cream around the house. I don't get to use the excuse that I am too busy to grocery shop and make my food. I don't get eat what everyone else eats at the pub or when we go out. At least not now. I'm too close to the edge and out of control.
Yesterday I went mountain biking with the boys at the bike park - 14 miles - and lots of fun - I was exhausted and rewarded myself with Edy's frozen yogurt and a grilled cheese...
Back to basics today. Instead of being overwhelmed by the big picture...I'm going to handle each situation individually.
Good luck...I have to set myself up for success or I will easily choose the wrong food. I make it a priority each week to stock up on foods I like to eat that are healthy and if I start to get low I force myself to shop again..if I don't thats when bad choices enter! You got this!
ReplyDeleteThis time of the year and especially the colder it gets, I love lattes. But I gave them up about 4-5 months ago and honestly I don't really miss it.
ReplyDelete400 calories is a lot. I know you can give them up! :)
Sandra
Yes, this is a battle we will need to fight, maybe all our lives. I read your blog and now I keep seeing a grilled cheese sandwich...... I do not think that was the point, but it sort of was--food obsession.
ReplyDeleteI understand exactly what you are saying. I just had FOUR fun sized snickers bars from the basket in Robyn's office. Why does she have them there? I don't know. I'm sure it's not to torture me...Other people can have one or two throughout the day and be fine. Me...nope, i went in and took two. Then went back a few mins later and took two more.
ReplyDeleteHow in the hell is that working my program and determination? I have no idea. It can only get better though right? Yeah, I pretty much ate the calories burned in my run this morning. Go me. :(
I needed to read this. I am struggling the past few days with food again. I finally got my running back on track and dropped the ball on food. WTH!? I need to go cold turkey again and really focus. The scale is reflecting my lackadaisical attitude.
ReplyDeleteDid you say grilled cheese? Shit. I'd love to comment more but I gotta go find some cheese and bread and a pan....
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