What if I tracked my calories?
What if I tracked my work outs?
Would that stress me out? Would it lead to more binging? It has every time in the past....
Leigh sent me an email yesterday - thank you for that! She is so sweet and concerned about me....its true, I do have an addiction - and I have slipped - 20 pound gain since my low of 155... Its a scarey place to be.
In the past I have gone to counseling, OA , taken phentermine, counted calories, worked out, ate less, and the list goes on...Now I'm just pissed that I didn't get the sleeve...
My reaction to structure is to rebel. Structure with work, life and food. If you tell me I can't do something you can bet I will do it and do it 100%. This has always been a problem for me..... I have no clue why I didn't wind up a criminal drug addict. The only saving grace for me has been positive feedback...I thrive on compliments and praise... so strange...
Green Juice
1/4 of veg quesadila
2 glasses of champagne - WTF
handful of potato chips
2 chocolate chip cookies
1 snack bag of reeces cups
1 reeces candy bar
2 protien bars
1 fish taco
1 protein shake
Today is a new day ~ I will eat clean today
I absolutely love you. You are a valuable and wonderful person. I know you can get back on track and I already know you've been drinking water like it's your job today. /hugs You are the most bad ass chick I know.
ReplyDeleteDon't be pissed that you didn't get the sleeve... After all, any WLS is just a tool and it is what you do with it that makes a difference. I didn't get the sleeve for fear of stretching the pouch back out. Just be thankful you are where you are, you look fabulous, you seem to have a lot of energy, and focus yourself on getting to where you need to be.
ReplyDeleteI know you will do it! You really inspire me.