Its on! ~ Edited

Its no longer about peanut butter and being vigilant.  Its full on war.  The ugly sugar addict and chubby girl have taken over.  Yesterday was a complete FAIL.  I did get in two mtb rides ~ the only highlight of my day.

First of all Thank you to Lap Band Girl for posting the band removal video this morning.  This really scared me shitless.  I had a big binge yesterday and have been trying to turn it around.  After seeing that video it really struck home that I need to put on my big girl panties or Athena's Battle gear and take this more seriously.  I have been depending on the band too much to stop me.  Its on vacation when I make poor decisions ~ so its up to me.

Truth is, I have a sugar addiction.  When I am off the wine ~ I am on the sugar.  This must stop.  I know life is not all or nothing but right now it has to be.  

I'm gonna be in a bad way today around lunchtime so I may be reaching out to a few of you for moral support today.


~ New Edit ~ Just watched Bandedwendy and Blakkandi's videos today!  Just what I needed .. a good kick in the ass and some warrior chicks who have won the war!!  Booyah!!!  

Each moment, each decision is a battle.  If I start to win a few, I can win the war...

Battle of the Giants led by Athena