Here she is! Athena in all her awesomeness. She is the voice inside me that says keep running, keep biking, you can go another mile, don't give up. She keeps watch over me near a buffet table. She taps me on the shoulder when I am browsing the refrigerator. She will fight the Hostess Snowball that calls to me in the store (eeww gross - did I really eat that once upon a time). Nothing phases her ~ she never cries into a bag of chips or feels sorry for herself. I am slowly becoming her.
At the other end of the spectrum is the old me - the out of control fat girl who couldn't get from point A to point B without something sweet, the girl who didn't believe she was good enough ~ and had no self confidence. I am leaving that person behind and the farther away I get, the more I hate her.
Today as I was cleaning out my closet and putting all my way too big clothes in box to make way for Athena's wardrobe I was grossed out. I want no memories of who I was. I'm not saving my fat jeans, I am not keeping any of my old clothes I don't even want pictures around. That other person was weak, sloppy and depressed. I'm not going back.
Athena was asking what took you so long? Why did you not care before? How could you let it get so bad? Then I remind myself that ~ HEY! I had to have surgery to get here. It wasn't easy. Now, with the combined efforts of Athena and the Lap Band I can conquer this once and for all and move that fat girl out of my house to make room for Athena.
This is the part where Beyonce comes out and sings some type of girl power anthem....just sayin'.
Vanessa- You have a wonderful life ahead of you because you were willing to do whatever it took to get to this point. And now you can do anything you put your mind to.
ReplyDeleteJen does such an awesome job! I love her work. I love your new design.
ReplyDeleteYour blog is soo terrific!! I love IT!
ReplyDeletelove the post and love the design. Was it expensive??
ReplyDeleteThanks guys! The blog design was not expensive ~ go to Jen at http://justfoolinblogdesigns.blogspot.com/. She was great!
ReplyDeleteI don't want to hear this, Miss Vanessa!! *peels finger like a carrot at you!*
ReplyDeleteIt was the "out of control fat girl" who made this decision to change her life. Thanks to her you're where you are today.
Never forget where you came from!
That being said, don't hesitate to throw out those "fat" clothes, or donate them to someone else in blogland who might need them! :)
ReplyDeleteLove the new design!!! And I like the you are getting rid of that other girl. But you are totally awesome and the fat girl inside us got us to who we are today... good and bad. So dont forget all that happened to get you to this point. You are doing awesome. You will never go back!
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