10 Things Thursday

1.  I'm going out to dinner w/SO and getting gigged up for that in my new dress ~ pictures to follow!
2.  I saw the woman today who was the reason I got my lapband ~ she is radiating sunshine and still kicking ass ~ 3 years later and out dating on line ~ get some!
3. Watched My 600 Pound Life last night and this morning on TLC ~ totally blew me away ~ a must see for everyone.  
4. Work is busy and I'm feeling a shower of green backs coming my way ~ bootay slap
5.  I ran this morning ~ short run with the dogs ~ but, hey, its something
6.  I love having short hair!
7. I am contemplating taking drugs ~ lexapro to be exact ~ my highs are too high
8. Just got the best present ever ~ SO got me a subaru Jersey for mtb!! ~ see photo below!
9. I love my Subaru and I love MTB and I really love that subaru sponsors a team! 
10.  I'm still just doin' me!

Snow Day.

Have I ever told you how snow makes me hungry?  And how uncertainty makes me hungry? 


I have been Bingey Binge Alot this week.  Skerred of the scale I won't know the damage till Monday morning.  Lets just say that the day started off with Toll House cookies fresh from the oven with coffee....It felt right at the moment. Now, I'm second guessing that decision.
Today was supposed to be my long run day...but I'm a pussy, so I'll not be running outside in the snow ~ I'll be mountain  biking instead.  


I broke ties with the people I had been working with ~ so I'm out on my own now ~ a little scary ~ hell yes. But Freedom feels right and I swear, if I saw one more email with the word "Functionality" in it I was going to uni-bomb some shit.


So to pump myself up for my new found freedom I am spending this snowy morning cleaning the house and purging it of all that is unnecessary.  The dogs are looking at me with nervous eyes...


Plan for getting back on track...
Water Water Water
Veggies
No Sugar for 24 hours
Enjoy the snow and rejoice  
Head down and work...all lights are ahead are green!

Weigh in

~Weigh in ~ 
Start Weight ~ 241
Last Week ~ 160.2
This Week ~ 158.2
Loss of ~ 2 pounds! 
Total loss ~ 82.8


This is a huge loss for me!  I can't remember the last time I had such a solid loss.  Off to work I go feelin' like a true Honey Badger.  
Lessons from this week ~ no wine = loss
                                    ~ running = loss
                                    ~ cutting out sugar = loss
                                    ~ cutting out carbs = loss
                                   ~ tracking calories = loss
                                   ~ drinking water = loss 


And just because I love pimps:

Who is that Pink Biotch? 

WFG must be punished and Weigh in...

Or that's what I was thinking this morning when I decided to go for a run ~ 34 degrees 8am on the road and bam! there it is ~ Sub 30 5K!  Quien es tu papi?  Yo Soy tu papi! Yeah ~ spanglish is my second language....

Weigh in this morning @ 160.2 = + .2 ~ which is balls b/c on Saturday I saw 158 ~ thus is my point of punishing the weekend fat girl.  2 slices of pizza and fro yo?  Who are you?  I was in a horrible mood until after my run.  Now ~ all good.  Working today and then..... yes, a FULL MOON Mountain Bike Ride out in Montauk along the coast.  I will try my hardest to keep the rubber side down this time. 

SUB 30 5k ~ FIRST EVER!!! WOOO HOOOO!

Weekend and Weigh in!

This weekend was like a "coming out" party for me ~ not that kind ~ more like a debutante coming out :)  I went to a horse show to help my friend with her customers and I hadn't seen many of them since pre-op. Who thought it would be possible to get tired of hearing "you look great!"  "how much have you lost"  "how did u do it?" ?

I went the route of telling people that I exercise like a maniac, I eat really well and that I had surgery.  

It really does take some getting used to - becoming visible again.  

Had a great weekend with family who I never see. I spent so many years making excuses not to go to these family parties but this year I got really into it. I think living in the moment has helped. I even managed to make it through the family bbq without over eating (mainly b/c NO vegan options - who puts bacon in potato salad???)  Unfortunately had to eat dessert - blueberry crumble to soak up the margarita I drank so I could drive home. It was really great to spend time with my cousins and have real conversations with them ~ we are usually just together for quick visits.


Sunday I went to the Surf Club with my cousins and their kids ~ I am not a fan of children (there, I'm outted) but these kids were fun and I had a blast hanging out with them ~ it reminded me of when I was a kid.  Then I plunked down on the ocean for the rest of the afternoon and chillaxed after kid time.
I love my band ~ lunch at the beach would usually be a free for all for me but thanks to the band ~ I had a half cup of salad and half portion of french fries ~ woo hoo!  


I would be weighing in this morning ~ but just sprained my m*ther effin ankle AGAIN walking the dogs!  So I'll not be running today or getting on the scale.. I swear I'm gonna be on the Short Bus soon...

So I'm just going to count the Sunday morning weigh in.  I went for a run pre-beach and saw 174.4 on the scale after - holy sh*t that's 4.6lbs down! 


Since my last fill I have noticed that whenever I eat I have pain in my stomach for about an hour after ~ not sure what thats all about - i should probably eat less and chew more...duh!

Weigh in and a Fill

Today ~ 179 ~ no change but I ate like a hog in heat over the weekend and didn't do any exercise for two days b/c of the the pissing down rain.
I'll take it!
Went to Dr this morning ~ added 1cc ~ total of 6cc in the band.
On liquids for the day ~ and hope to be back running/biking tomorrow!

Top Ten Reasons I exercise

10. To stay out of the kitchen
9.   So that my legs will be strong to carry me over mountains
8.   To Socialize with my peeps!
7.   To get that ass kicking feeling of joy at the end of a hard work out
6.   To loose weight
5.   To keep sane ~ I love that serotonin
4.   So my heart is healthy
3.   So I can concentrate on the rest of my day ( self diagnosed ADD!)
2.  So I can be like my friend Jane who is a total hottie, super athlete and a grandma! ( she is on the left in the picture above)
1.  Because I refuse to go back to the PRISON of my couch 

Meet Brian - my sweet 29er mountain bike

I get to bike here ~ not too shabby!

Top Ten Things I love about This Journey

My Brain is fried from this week  ~ so little list to ease the pain...

Here are my top 10 for this week ~

10. Taking up less space in the world
9. Feeling full
8. Being fast
7. Wanting and loving exercise
6. Doing things outside my comfort zone
5. Shopping for clothes at American Eagle ~ see new dress below
4. Having more energy
3. Not having to eye up a plastic chair at a restaurant and pray that it holds
2. Finding others like me ~ realizing I am not alone
1. Becoming visible to the world

Yes - this is Sammy my diva dog stealing the shot!

That about sums it up this morning ~ what do you love about this Journey?

Response to Lap Band Girl Post

So Lap Band Girl had a great post yesterday:  Here are my answers:

What were your feelings when you first researched getting the band? Embarrassed? Excited? Scared? Happy? Etc?

I was a bit embarrassed and ashamed that I after many many attempts at loosing wight I always failed .  But once I made peace with the idea knowing that it was a tool, I began to seek out people who had the band.  After talking to people I felt much better about it and even got really excited.

Do you tell people about your band? If you do, how do you tell people? 
I was telling everyone and anyone about it.  I still do.  I usually just blurt it out after I tell them the amount of exercise I do.  It makes me really mad that people assume that it is all the band.


Do you only tell certain people?  
Most people in my life know I had the surgery.  I tell just about everyone who asks.


Any other advice for Cookie?
Make sure you have a surgeon that you like.  And yes, it was the best decision I have ever made.  No ~ it is not  magic bean ~ just a tool, but a very good one.  Exercise is the most important part of the journey! 

Balance and Wishes

Ok - crack that whip! Rant and confessions

Getting back on track today.  Yesterday I took the day off from exercise and that really messes with my head.  I am convinced that within 24 hours I will gain all my weight back and then some.  This is a real head trip and I'm hoping I can get it under control soon.  Yesterday was a free for all food day.  I thought it would be a good idea to eat two left over focaccia sandwiches after I had a large lunch and pasta salad. oy - I did not feel well all evening ~ will be doing liquids all day today to repent for my sins.

I am having a hard time balancing life ~ A big shout out to all you working moms who are also on the weight loss journey and doing it.  I have no kids ~ well, I do count my dogs ~ my job is flexible and my husband is super helpful and awesome, and I still have a hard time.  It seems I can only do one thing well at a time. Right now that's ME.  I am having a hard time getting it together with work and keeping up with the house work.  My focus had been 100% on me and my lap band journey.  I am now trying to put at least 50% toward my work and I just don't have it.

All I want is to be able to train full time for the VT50 and other races  ~ Hey anyone at Allergan want to sponsor this lap bander?  Just askin'...

Ok - time to put on the big girl panties and get to work today ~