Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Carefree last week of summer

Summer officially ends Monday.  So I've been beachin pretty hard...yesterday spent the whole day at the ocean.  I'm heading there shortly for breakfast....

I've taken a few days off from the bike - had the chiropractor on Monday and have another adjustment this afternoon.  I'm still in a lot of pain.  So sitting on the beach and swimming it is.

Yesterday I got a text from a good friend - that was pretty snarky... I also work with this friend and for some reason, I couldn't let it go.   It ate at me all day.  
Its because I stood my ground and for once didn't drop everything in my world for that friend....which I usually do...for everyone all the time and particularly  him.  I stood my ground which isn't easy for me - ever.
But it still made me feel like I was in the wrong...

Feelings are frustrating and the more weight I carry the more feelings I have...
Sticking up for myself with people who I love and want badly to like me is something I need to work on.  

Its all, people pleasing, weight gain, self confidence....its like a cycle...I'm learning.. - very slowly.


  1. ah man... this blog. did I write it? :-/ yesterday I learned something about myself dealing with these same things.... that there's a word for people like me- people pleasers who go above and beyond for others, which often leads to forgetting myself-codependence. it's an ugly word to me. but reading up on it made me realize it's accurate. ugh, I hate when it's true and I don't want it to be.

  2. The more weight I carry the more feeling I have. Me too. And the more those feelings seem overwhelming.

  3. It IS a cycle but good for you for recognizing what you can do for someone and what is just too much.

  4. Yes, yes, yes. I totally feel you. The more weight I have, the more insecure I get and the more I worry about every little thing like that. Hoping for your mojo to come back to you soon!