Sunrise....and weigh in

Its 5:30 in the morning - the sun is just rising.  I am cranky.  I want to go back to bed and sleep in.  
But I have a friend to meet at 6:30.  Road riding this morning.  I need this. 

 Yesterday I did't work out and was so cranky and craving sugar something fierce!  Dare I say there was a tantrum thrown in the evening when I wanted to go for ice-cream, and Mo and I took the dogs for a walk instead.  My inner sugar devil pitched a fit but I rode it out and watched the olympics instead.  

Was yesterday a sugar free day? Nope.  Did I abuse sugar to calm down and as a reward after my successful appointment, yup.  Am I going to get my ass on the bike today and try like hell to do better than yesterday - that would be a fuck yeah!

Ronnie has set herself a new goal of running a 10 minute mile - she is such a bad ass inspiration! I know she'll do it because lets face it, she is a rock star!  She also wanted to know what our fitness goal are? 

This got me thinking about what my goals were in the beginning of the year - this is what my PLAN was ~ I'm not hating on it - still doing okay with the overall theme but the follow through is a problem.  I talk a big game in the beginning and then somehow hope like hell for the results to go in my favor  - its just not good enough.  I am lazy... yes - thats the truth,  the middle step is where I fail and that is the difference between being at goal by now and being where I am.  

Second half of post - after ride:


48 miles on the road  ~ had 2 gu, protein shake, coffee and fruit salad - its only 12:41 lets keep the good decisions rolling.  My weigh in was 161.6  Shockingly still 20 pounds from goal.  

So using Ronnie's SMART model (Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic, and Time Specific.)for goal setting this is what I've got. 

Lose 10 pounds by October 14th (also the Serpents Back race)
Thats a little more than 2 months away.  I would also like to place in my age group.  - tough group women's 36-40.  
Yes - thats two goals but hopefully one will be a byproduct of the other.

I leave you with photos from this morning's ride

Indian Wells Beach, Amagansett

Georgica Beach ~ mile 36

Warrior off to Battle

Still doing battle with the sugar monster.
I would love to invent a "patch" like the nicotine patch for this - but alas I will have to settle for doing the hard work - emotional growth and being on top of my food.

Check out this post about sugar addiction - very cool.  

I will be posting  a weigh in today....time to get real serious.

I can't handle the truth

Its true....I fell off the sugar wagon on my birthday - 1 week ago and the sugar binge has continued....WTF.   I wish that whenever I wanted sugar, a giant fist would appear and punch me in the face.....Um hello obvious addiction that does not serve me.... 


Moving on....today is the first day of the rest of my life...I will only put goodness  into my body today.


Its been two days since I worked out - I'm calling it recovery days and its been hot as ass crack on bus in India up in here.  I have been floating in the bay after work - that kinda counts - right?


My friend met with my Dr the other day and is moving ahead on her lap band journey....I need to pull my S H together to be a good band buddy/mentor.  I'm just going to focus on two things - move my body and just say no to sugar - it does not serve my long term or short term goals


Remember my rant on the drivers here...well this is one guys solution - If I saw this in my rear view mirror I'd think twice about being a douche. 

My plan for today...liquids...
Coffee 
walk dogs on beach
morning shake
green juice 
some fruit
protein shake 
Swim instead of float
I have a cocktail party to go to tonight  so I'll plan ahead and eat first...

Ten Things Thursday ~ Hamptons Edition

Its August here....and the elite of the most obnoxious people are here...urgh.
I have to love them b/c they keep our economy booming but boy do they know how to work a girls nerve!  The larger the range rover the worse the driving....don't even get me started on the hummer drivers...


2. I love when a celebrity bitch smacks rude old dudes Go Katie Lee! Read about it here

1.  Jay Z and Beyonce are in my hood this summer ~ they rented Sandcastle - the most over the top house on the planet  - I've been in it - it has a bowling ally and rock climbing wall ~ Check it out

I used to ride ponies on the field where this house was built - It used to grow potatoes ...


3.  Last night I went paddle boarding and hung out at the bay for sunset in honor of my Friend Andrew - who passed away unexpectedly last fall...I ate 3 brownies in his honor...bad girl!


4.  The A/C Broke at work today so I had some froyo - now I just feel sick...balls. 


5. Tonight mo is taking me out to dinner - fancy Italian restaurant woohooo - hope I don't get stuck


8.325 ~ Bentleys are so lame....I see them everywhere....i mean why don't you just wear a shirt that has your bank account balance on it....gosh!


91/2 ~ I just don't get city folk...they spend fuckloads of money to come to the country then bitch about the bugs and nature and sit in their over sized houses blasting the AC...seems kinda dumb to me


11.478  - Every morning in August there is a woman who runs on the beach where we all walk our dogs - I call her Franken Runner b/c she drags one leg and is old as fuck.  I wish she would just walk - it hurts to watch her run - and honey runs like three miles and she must be like a size negative 1..anyway - everyday she gives my dogs the stink eye - and everyday I say hello - I mean she know's this is the dog beach...why doesn't she run somewhere else....come on!

9.  I'm taking today off from exercise - yesterday I rode 30 and paddled and swam... even an olympian needs a recovery day.


10. Teaching Mo how to drive a stick is fun.  

Beach Party

B/c Everyone drinks skinny girl from the bottle

Another McLauren

We spread my old bosses ashes over the field we used to ride in at the farm

Yup - I was 20 in this pic - getting paid to ride on the beach - in february~ me and Norman!

top ten things I love about blogging

1.  A community of peeps that cheer for me and give good advice


2.  Accountability.... 


3. A record of my journey for me


5. I can number my list any damn way I want


6a. Ronnie is funny! 


7. Even though Cat and Robyn are Mia b/c they are working hard these days - I still think about them and can't wait for when they get back to regular blogging


F2 - Because yes, I can bike 65 miles and post about it and I can also let you know I just binged today and hope like hell I can pull my shit together - Smores frozen yogurt - is a problem


The symbol for Pi here:    My day isn't complete unless I check in on you all!


8.235ab  - I'm human and so is my blog....

Olympic Fever

Yes - I've got it bad! I'm almost delusional..


I have always loved the Olympics.  This year I am obsessed.  Last night I wondered - out loud  and dead seriously "can an obese lap bander become an olympian?"  Mo looked at me like I had 8 heads.
I'm still kinda young....36.  Every few years I "age out" of a sport.  At 18 it dawned on me that I would never be a gymnast.  At 22 I knew I would never be a track star.  At  28 my podium finish for the 400m freestyle dreams were crushed - as you can see with each new games I was out a sport - in the back of my mind I keep curling and equestrian events as my safety sports.  But last night I fiercely and proudly proclaimed to all in my presence - Mo, Eddie and Sammy - that here before them was an olympian.  Yes - Rio 2016 - For Mountain Biking.  I will be 40.  I have never raced in a UCI sanctioned event but why the hell not shoot for the stars!

Not me - this is an actual olympian ~ Judy Freeman

In other weightloss news....
I had a small slice of b-day cake - I didn't even want it but I thought I should have it.  Dammit!  Sent me into a sugar spiral yesterday.  Today back to white knuckle sugar detox to get back on track...
I am so sensitive to that shit!  grrrrr


What I ate yesterday -
Protein Shake
small bag of chocolate chips
4 slices of fried zucchini
b-day cake
2 small pieces of chocolate
RAN 1 MILE/WALKED 1 MILE - RUNNING POST BINGE IS NEVER A GOOD IDEA..
blood orange margarita - damn that was good!
miso soup
avocado salad
few bites of cookielicious - insanely good!


Turning this around now.....

Birthday Recap! In Photos

Yesterday I biked 65 miles ( strava says 61 - b/c I accidentally shut off the garmin by accident at one point) - it wasn't a beach day so I spent the whole afternoon in a post ride stooper  watching the olympics and laying around.  Then went to my BFFs house - she made me cake and we munched on fresh mozzarella and tomatoes... yum!  Kept it very low key - the best part of the day was spending 4.5 hours on the bike without having to be anywhere or worry about work! pure heaven.  -

the 3600 calorie burn wasn't bad either! 

Happy Sunday! - get your ass up and out there and do something for yourself!

Me and Sammy in our post ride lounge position!

MY Birthday pres - 90% finished new bathroom

I will be visiting this ring - its 8 carrot ruby and costs 350,000.   - next year!

Mo!  Toasting the birthday girl!

Cake and Card - yay!

Half way!  Made it to Montauk!  

I just thought this was cool!