I wake up at night with a racing heart and and binge on sugar during the day to soothe myself - enough. I felt like I was going to die last night and this morning I am train wreck.
Simple plan ~
1. No news. yup - call me ignorant but if there is something I really need to know, I'm sure a friend or loved one will let me know to take shelter. So - yes, no news anymore.
2. Eat only from the Earth. Green Juice, whole grains and maybe a fish 1x a week...everyone I know has gone vegan and they are vibrating with health and light - I'm coming back - running toward the light.
3. Two hours a day for me. Yes- they can include, blogging, reading, thinking, walking, biking, running, petting the dogs or day dreaming about beautiful things.
4. No more working 12 hours in a row - I will take an hour off to sit in front of something pretty and find my joy - this probably means sitting at the ocean in my car for now until it gets warm enough to walk on the beach or go pet a horse
5. Stop being a sponge for people's urgency and negativity. I'm rubber and you're glue. That old saying "poor planning on your part does not constitute and emergency on my end" - yup I'm gonna live that.
6. Spend 1 hour a day fluffing my space - that means making my home pretty - Clutter makes me nuts - and being all or nothing -if the house isn't organized I give up and let it be gross.
7. I'm terrified I'll gain all my weight back and I know that is abut 60% of the stress I'm feeling - so I shall know that by making good choices and taking care of myself I will cut out this stress.
8. People pleasing is a fat girls disease. When I sacrifice myself for another it never ends well and I will eat that pain - all day every day.
9. As a lap band patient 2 years post op (april 6) - I'm still doing the mental work.
Thats the new plan....I'll let you know how it goes. I fell better already not watching the news this morning as I write.
sounds like a fabulous plan! One I may need to adopt myself! Well except the Vegan...I can go more earth, but with meat :D I wish I had an ocean to look at I'll have to make do with the mountains...and your comment about pleasing everyone is a fat-girl thing...so right on.
ReplyDeletethis is great! i think regardless of how long we have had the band, we are always learning!
ReplyDeleteI don't think any of us will ever get through the mental stuff.
ReplyDeleteSo glad you have a plan, now just stick to it!
I love your plan. I've been toying with something similar. I'm thinking I need to put it in writing and make a contract with myself. Thanks for putting yours out there; you've inspired me. Mine is on the way.
ReplyDeleteI like your plan. I stay away from the news too. Im convinced the media is out to keep the world scared and depressed! You are gonna do great!
ReplyDeleteThat sounds like a great plan! I do the hour a day fluffing my space...it keeps me sane :)
ReplyDeleteI could of written this... keep on pushing Warrior. It is all about the journey.
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