TTTs

1. I binged on sugar (chocolate) yesterday
2. I didn't work out
3. I was told to "shut the effing iphone off and relax" - by the guy I work for. Which stressed me out even more.
4. Reflexology..interesting I may go agian
5. I'm still stressed out and my body is tight...and not the good swimsuit tight...   
6. Yes, today is a new day - I feel used up and exhausted
7. I will still try today to do the best I can do.
8. Counting down the days until Rincon - 17 days.... I should focus on detoxing. 
9. Why is there no methadone for sugar addicts?  
10.  Watching the news is depressing - I think its setting a bad tone for my morning. 
11. Its time for another prescription of ritalin...I'm ADD to the max.

So looking ahead...
Today - I will start with baby steps - take dogs to the beach first thing and breathe in the beauty - even though its effing freezing out.  Fresh Air will do me good.

Stay gold.
 


    

WTF Wednesday

As some of you know...I've been in a bad way.  In a sugar hole.  
Work/Stress is bad.  I've not had a day off in two weeks - so dammit I'm trying to work from home today and take it easy.  Apparently I've been snarkey and yesterday was told to go home and take a nap..ha!

So what does one do when eating out of control and stress is almost unbearable?  
One books a trip to Rincon Puerto Rico.  Yep- going the second week of April - 2 weeks away....if thats not motivation to get my S H together foodwise, I don't know what is.   Its a girls trip like last time - I need to get a few new dresses but thats about it - there will be sleeping - swimming - paddling and yoga. :) and maybe some cocktailing - ok - yes there will definitely be cocktailing.
Bathing suit in 2 weeks - eek. 

I was so motivated two weeks ago when it was warm out...now its still frikkin freezing and I feel so meh.  Can't wait to go to away!    

So  today - I am apporaching it one minute one moment at a time.   If I can get through today "clean" then I should be ok....
Gonna ride my bike, walk the dogs and go to the store for some wholesome food - the last time I went food shopping was March 5th...

The Fat Girls Prayer

God grant me the strength to turn away from my wants and lean in to my needs.  
Give me the will to continue to fight when I no longer want to.
Let my jeans zip up and let no one notice how I am puffier than I was.
Please take this heavy weight off my light spirit. 

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.    


  

10 Things Thursday

Yessssssssss, my favorite day of the week, at least in blogland...real life meh...Thursday is a crazy day - getting prepped for the weekend.

1.  I will run this morning.

2.  That picture from yesterday shook me...Mo's friend had it on his phone and sent it to him.  I feel sad that I was that person, that I let so much of my life be dictated by my body and shame.  I realize now how valuable freedom is and how lucky I am to come this far. 

3.  I will not take this for granted.  No more sneaking crap food...and if I have to wonder how I'm doing on this journey...well this should sum it up.

  4. Damn I really liked those sunglasses...and I effing lost them...they were JLo - I got them for 7 bucks and they were fabulous...hrumph

5. We are getting closer to booking our trip to Bali.  Its going to be a stretch but I am hell bent on going through my bucket list...while I'm still young. 

6.  This weekend is going to be crazy busy...I'm booked back to back both Saturday and Sunday...there is a bit of a boom here in the Real Estate market.  :)

7. New Pope...I thought the Royal Wedding was way more fun to watch...

8. Thinking of sneaking off in April for a MTB trip to Colorado...

9.  Dogs rule...seriously.... just looking over at the pups on the couch - they are the best!

10.   Meh - not much to say today...other than keep on keepin on.  

A day in the life.

Its cold again..meh.   Yesterday morning before the rain storm I took Ed running - we did 2.8 miles on the road and beach.  He needs to get in shape badly. I was impressed, he kept up with me most of the way with a few breaks to sniff and do his biz.  Then he crashed and spent the rest of the day sleeping- wish I had been that lucky.
Life is not that exciting  lately - I've been watching downton abby like its my job in the evening - almost done with this season...shhhh no spoilers...
Mo is putting his time in and watching with me...I know its because Basketball Playoffs are on the way and I will loose all rights to the tube.  oh well.
My efforts at going sugar free yesterday were a fail - effing cadbury mini eggs...ok - so today is a new day. again.

Girl scout cookies have invaded my office....I will not partake.  

Today I went MTB for a few hours - after Mo sent me this picture......I lost my appetite for sugar - 

  

Well Hellooooooo there...

What a beautiful weekend we had here.   Sunday I was a Mountain Biking fool - even with the clock change....I was on the bike at the NEW 7:30 and out for two hours in the snow on my single speed.
 Pure Bliss...
Then I went to work...
Then I went Mountain Biking yet again....just an easy one to take out a friend who is a beginner...
Yesterday I paid for my greedy mountain biking... back was so sore and shoulder on fire...I hadn't ridden my Single Speed in ages and it is so much more of a body workout than my geared bike... yikes.

But it was worth it...yesterday two different people said I looked like I was loosing weight...:)  - can't hate on that!  And my mood has improved tremendously!  - Exercise side effect!

Food....whats been going in my mouth....lots of protein....until yesterday... had a run in with some sugar..but like I said to Miss Lorie  today is a new day.   

Hoping I get a ride in this morning...rain is on the way.  

My favorite breakfast - 1 egg, avocado, taco sauce and sprinkle of chedder..

 

Sunday Afternoon walk

S'MAI

Morning Ride

Here comes the sun!

Friday  - recap 

1 egg, sprinkle of cheese and half of an avocado
run/walk 5K
apple
wasabi peas 1/4 cup
sweet potato soup 8 oz
kitcheree (half of a serving)
Dinner and drinks with friends - 
1 glass of red (probably was more like 2 glasses- my bartender has a heavy pour)
a few shrimp, small portion of lobster salad, and mini crab cake.
oh and few bite of cake...whoops.

Tomorrow - MTB in the morning - I can't wait!!  Yay!! 
Its going to be a sunny warm weekend  - roll on spring!