Pouch Test update and NSV

Day 2 ~ 5:33 pm ~
All good so far.  I am super proud that today when shit hit the fan with work stuff ~ I turned to the bottle (water) instead of food.  go me.  

Last night we went out for drinks with friends ~ I had lemon water .... go me again!



2 days of liquids is not that horrible  tomorrow is what I'm worried about...soft protein...I think its just tofu for me...you get to eat as much as you want all day as long as it is protein and you have 15 minutes to eat it in ....I seriously don't think I can eat that much tofu... Beans have carbs and I have no idea what else to eat that is just protein that does not come from an Animal.  


Yesterday I got a run in on the dread mill and today, nothing yet ~ Tomorrow is going to be really beautiful so I'll get out on the MTB first thing.  


This morning I went to Target and TJ Maxx ~ yes ~ size 8 jeans!  Ok, they are snug but honey badger don't care ~ they'll loosen up.  I tried on 10 dresses and all of them size 10 fit perfectly ~ its so cool to go shopping and have options and not just take the one that covers the most body!  I'll put photos up soon of the two I bought.  I almost bought red leopard hooker heals b/c they looked so cool w/my dress.  But I know me and I'll never wear them so I skipped them and got some more reasonable ones... lame. But I saved 30 bucks!


Wish me luck on day 3 ~ scrambled tofu for breakfast ~ and then .....


And I still haven't gone grocery shopping...its such a drag.  I will have a butler one day to do this for me.

Monday Weigh In Blows!

Because I am the HBIC of my life ~ I declare new weigh day to be Wednesday!


Why is it that Thursday I can weigh 156 and by Sunday I'm up to 159?  


It  is because I am not to be trusted around melted cheese and sugar.  This week is back to basics and to see if I really need a fill that is set for next week.  Do I really want to lose this last 20 pounds or am I dicking around and panicking about getting even more attention and more sass ~ Fear.  This is my monster (well that and sugar)
Everything you just read is an excuse ~ see below for plan this week.


Exercise ~ I got that shit 
Food ~ I need to get that shit (5 day pouch test)
Mental Game ~ I need to get a guru or something b/c this is a fail.  
Planning ~ Fail


Food ~ Monday and Tuesday ~ Liquids 
Wed ~ Mushies
Thurs ~ some solids
Friday ~ back to normal


Mental Game ~ Going to therapy


Planning ~ I hate grocery shopping.  I'll suck it up and do this tomorrow.

I'm just doin' me...

To say I've been a little obsessed with youtube videos lately would be an understatement.  I got sucked into "shit women say to personal trainers" and then it just spiraled out of control from there.  So yes....in my spare time I have been consumed by laughter and not paying much attention to blogger.  There I'm out now.  Actually, that's a load of crap.  I am in the middle of a relationship meltdown and have been zoning out with you tube instead of food.  Ok thats crap too...I have been pigging out so bad my band hurts.  Yes.      There ~ that's the truth.  I am soothing the pain and discomfort with food.  Arughggggh#$QW#$$$!!


So here's the whole truth ~ I have been running and feeling sassy and crushing on guys (did I mention I am married to a wonderful man?).  So I'm either feeling total rockstar~ ie full of myself and restricting calories and working that shit out ~ or I'm feeling alone and sad and feeding that hole with shit food.  The only saving grace is that the band does some damage control.  


I wish they talked more about this in the pre-op sessions about what life is like after the band when you wake up from the food coma and are all full of yourself looking at the grass on the other side of the fence.
So there ~ I'm out! 


The last time I worked out was Thursday ~ I don't know if you heard....but I ran really far.  :)  
Today work got in the way ~ how the hell do people balance that shit with a family?  Thank god I only have dogs....
Tonight I might run ~ or binge ~ or do both....sigh.  Last night I had mozzarella sticks for an app and mac n cheese for a main course...I could only get in two fork fulls but seriously ~ what tha FUDGE!


Tomorrow I have a baby shower to go to.  So not my scene ~ thank god someone told me not to bring liquor...instead I got her a gift card for a massage ~ registry shopping is so predictable ~ I might still bring her a good Barolo or some Champagne.  I'm going to try and start the 5 day pouch test and keep my shit clean for the party ~ just say  no to dip and anything that has melted cheese on it. 


So Ladies ~ that's the long and short of it.  Trying to do damage control and not fuck up my whole life.


Love that you guys are loosing and keeping me inspired ~ Hell yeah shout out to Robin, Miss Lorie and Cat!  You girls are Crushing it!!!  Here are some funny ass links to the videos that have been cracking me up ~ and yes, they are stereotype humor so no anonymous complaints ! I'm not PC and hope to never be.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GMCkuqL9IcM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmQN8eMeKBw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5MJbZ4l4J8&ob=av3e

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aosMsYWzKzs

10 Things Thursday

1. I ran 7.75 miles today. 2. I ran 7.75 miles today! 3. I was really tired from running so far 4. Life is confusing and messy but I'm doing my best to keep my chin up. 5. I've been slacking on blogging and reading blogs...sorry. 6. I love that Ronnie Blogs about dating...you go on with your honey badger ways! 7. Tax season is upon us and I have to enter all my statements into quick books since may 2011....slack much? 8. I ran really far today 9. Have I told you ladies how much you rock and inspire me? Well you do! And I love you all! 10. The future is terrifying and exciting.

Keeping it Real

Just out here looking for advice...
Have any of you ~ perhaps those of you who have reached goal ~ noticed a shift in your relationship with your significant other.  I'm being pretty vague here..I'm just trying to adjust to the "new me" and that means being treated differently by everyone ~ and getting attention from people (men) that I never would have had.  I'm struggling a bit and feeling more and more like a fireball and I know that's just a temporary thing until I get used to this new body.  Not sure what I'm trying to say ...just wanted to reach out to the sisterhood and see if you all have had any struggles and how you dealt with them...any input would be most appreciated.
~ Athena 

Weigh in ~ GAIN Muth@#$%%^^^&&@@#### Blleeeeeep!

Start ~241

Today ~ 159.6

Last week 158.2

GAIN 1.4 

So the damage has been done.  A weekend of snow ~ pigging out and a night out on the town ~ I couldn't turn down those vodka cranberry drinks...urgh or wine when watching the game...

This morning  did a fast 4 mile run on the road ~ repenting for my sins.

Back to water water water water and no carbs!  I just want to see 155 for a weigh in...that would rock!

OH and I got to do my snow ride over the weekend too....major trudge but so worth it!

Snow Day.

Have I ever told you how snow makes me hungry?  And how uncertainty makes me hungry? 


I have been Bingey Binge Alot this week.  Skerred of the scale I won't know the damage till Monday morning.  Lets just say that the day started off with Toll House cookies fresh from the oven with coffee....It felt right at the moment. Now, I'm second guessing that decision.
Today was supposed to be my long run day...but I'm a pussy, so I'll not be running outside in the snow ~ I'll be mountain  biking instead.  


I broke ties with the people I had been working with ~ so I'm out on my own now ~ a little scary ~ hell yes. But Freedom feels right and I swear, if I saw one more email with the word "Functionality" in it I was going to uni-bomb some shit.


So to pump myself up for my new found freedom I am spending this snowy morning cleaning the house and purging it of all that is unnecessary.  The dogs are looking at me with nervous eyes...


Plan for getting back on track...
Water Water Water
Veggies
No Sugar for 24 hours
Enjoy the snow and rejoice  
Head down and work...all lights are ahead are green!