I need a fitness buddy to kick my ASS....

I've been trying to post for days -- and its just not happened...so here is the truth - I need a buddy.  I've lost my mojo...it went away on vacation - no clue where it went, I hope somewhere nice and that when it comes back its all tan and happy and motivated.  I'm out of control on the candy/sugar wagon.  This is a reoccuring theme and I'm terrified that I'm going to wake up back at 241.

Yesterday I slept for 12 hours and last night I put in 10hours and DO NOT WANT to go to work.  
Can someone remind me how good it feels to loose weight and buy new fall clothes - because for some reason when I am faced with a decision between eating shit and just saying no - I seem to forget ...

Below is the post I was trying to write over the past few days - its a half assed attempt at fall fashion and what I did over the weekend...

My brain hurts.... Its easier to post photos

#1 Fall Fashion - I have no clothes ~ desperate to find my own style - I think its going to be a cross between this 

And the donna reed dress/kate spade dresses that I love...

Any thoughts....

I went to the Hamtpon Classic Horse show on Sunday to support my friends ~ its the official end of the summer here in the Hamptons - all the locals are totally fried and over the renters and visitors.   We even have celebrations on Labor Day ( Mimosa Monday ~ at the ocean, Tumbleweed Tuesday ~ at all the bars and then the famous AMF party at one of the local dive bars - it stands for Adios Mutha....Fu@#ers)  Don't get me wrong - we love the tourists - they keep our economy going but we also love to see them go, and get our little towns back to a more manageable population.

My old Boss Passed away this year and they renamed the Main Hunter Ring after her - it was a beautiful ceremony...

The Grand Prix tent - on Sunday it will be full of celebs and real housewives - I go for the people show....

PB2 ~ Verdict is in...

5:30 am - stumbling around in the dark to make my shake and get ready for a ride....
Bonus points for having a hangover and going anyway!

PB2 - is the bomb! 

This couple parked right in front of us and proceed to make out and almost have sex - gross - and he was busted and she was really hot and young - definitely a sugar daddy situation

Beach Party!

Couch in the sand

Morning shake - not with the gatoraid...

God awful early

10 Things Thursday! and weigh in

Thanks to Laura for the best day of the week ever!!

1. 163 ~ there it is....damage done.  

2. Ran yesterday - 2 miles...did not feel like it and I slogged it out

3. Yesterday was supposed to be an off day - so I only worked until noon then headed to the ocean.  Only ate watermelon and edamame on the beach ..

4.  Binged on ice cream pops in the car on the way home from the store - I'm more angry about the act of binging in the car and then hiding the evidence - old behaviors creeping in...I will not allow this to continue 

5.  This evening we are having a beach party - so looking forward to it.

6.  I'm so pissed that I can't mountain bike because of the awful ticks - I may just say fuck it and go anyway

7. Seeing you guys who are doing the boobs challenge lose is a big inspiration to me!  

8.  Andrea - CRUSHING IT!!!!  Hot damn I need to steal that mojo!

9.  I am jealous of the girls that are big and still rock a bikini and yet I cover every dimple and square of flesh...they are the true honey badgers - 

10.  God give me the strength to make 3 good decisions in a row to get back into my good habits....this sugar and dairy train has to stop.

Yesterday we rode 30 miles at 6:30 in the morning - It was Mo's first road ride with me...he hasn't been on the bike in a while  - I may have fibbed and told him we were going to do 15 Miles...whoopsies..
He road like a champ and didn't complain too much....
I was basking in the afterglow of our ride and it dawned on me - I am in better shape than him. NSV!  

Yesterday was a great day - I won 200 bucks!  Just for going to an open house and putting my card in a hat ~ This girl is feeling lucky!  Then I got great news for business - good things are coming but if I spell it out they may disappear - but know that hard work does pay off.  

I'm going to slog out a run this morning - that video that Amy posted is pretty awesome and Inspiring.

I've got to get to the office bright and early - like 8am because its a beach day!  Going to settle in at the ocean for the afternoon and then they are showing Jaws on the beach tonight...should be fun.

Lori has a great blog post today ~ a poem about habits ~ check it out because its dead on.
Thats my problem - I need to train my habits...
At least I'm addicted to exercise....
Happy Hump day.

Its dark out.....

5:30 in the morning - still dark....I feel fall creeping up on me.
Dammit!
I plan on wallowing in the last rays of summer until the frost forces me to admit that its over ~ so there!

Last night I met some friends down at the ocean for a swim and sunset.  It was amazing - I know I should be used to it but every time I witness such awesomeness I am in awe - the colors in the sky and on the water - too cool.  And as we were hanging out and chatting I look up and there is Alec Baldwin standing over us - he was walking along the beach with his new wife and their puppy.  Damn he looks good - poster child for Yoga - I think I shall try it - he really looked great.

This morning - I'm up and off for a bike ride.  Ordered my PB2 from amazon - never had it before but I see some of you are fans so I'll jump on that low cal bandwagon and take it for a spin.
Not much new here - been slacking on the health front and working hard at trying to make money.
I still can't believe some of you teachers are back to school already!  Here that doesn't start until after Labor Day.
Here are some photos from last night and one from my work party.

Tan lines Much?

Even Alec Baldwin was taking pictures of the sunset.

Little Edie Beale

Yesterday - I didn't run but the good news is that the poor food choices ended early..mainly because work got in the way...thank you.
I love me some wacky socialites - aka Edie Beale - I went to Grey Gardens yesterday for an open house - the current owner has restored the house to its glory days - when she bought it there were raccoons and a cat colony living in it with the Beales.  The house just feels like me - one day I shall live there...

But then around 3 we were watching a fender bender out of our office window - Jeep backed into a Porsche....standard on main street.  It was then decided that we shall blow off the afternoon and go for cocktails on the dock...This worked to my advantage because I got more calls and business done just sitting watching the water than had I been in front of the computer stressing out.  This proves my theory that the universe wants me to day drink by the sea..

Really? House dress at 4pm at a restaurant?  Big Edie is following me...

I am actually going for a run shortly - there is no way I can make through the rest of this weekend without clearing out my brain cobwebs and getting a sweat on! 
Plan for today ~ 
Run
Protein Shake
Green Juice for Lunch 
Corn on the cob for dinner and bbq tofu

uh ohhhh

You know your day is gonna be a shit storm when you look at your calendar and there is no blank space - appts through until 6pm....
The mature way to handle this is to eat veggies, go for a run and meditate to clear your head. 
I did the opposite - ate ice cream for breakfast - watched the real house wives of NYC and ran into the office like my pants were on fire.
The rest of my day was a total cluster fluck...sigh.  
Of course I ended the day with a frozen margarita and fried mac n cheese bites (this was a religious experience). 

So basically yesterday was a picture perfect snapshot of how I used to live pre-op.  I am not going to wallow in the carb hangover...I did just eat left over quesadillas for breakfast....my protein powder is on backorder so no shake...but now from this moment on (7:54 EST) I'm going to eat clean and forge on into the weekend of craziness.

Happy Friday ~ make it count.