What if I tracked my calories?
What if I tracked my work outs?
Would that stress me out? Would it lead to more binging? It has every time in the past....
Leigh sent me an email yesterday - thank you for that! She is so sweet and concerned about me....its true, I do have an addiction - and I have slipped - 20 pound gain since my low of 155... Its a scarey place to be.
In the past I have gone to counseling, OA , taken phentermine, counted calories, worked out, ate less, and the list goes on...Now I'm just pissed that I didn't get the sleeve...
My reaction to structure is to rebel. Structure with work, life and food. If you tell me I can't do something you can bet I will do it and do it 100%. This has always been a problem for me..... I have no clue why I didn't wind up a criminal drug addict. The only saving grace for me has been positive feedback...I thrive on compliments and praise... so strange...
1/4 of veg quesadila
2 glasses of champagne - WTF
handful of potato chips
2 chocolate chip cookies
1 snack bag of reeces cups
1 reeces candy bar
2 protien bars
1 fish taco
1 protein shake
Today is a new day ~ I will eat clean today